A year ago I was a substantial body pump goer – then I stopped and then the fear grew. So I decided this season I’m getting my groove back with body pump.
About a year ago, every week I would do my body pump class. It was a 45 minutes’ class that conditions my body. I enjoyed it, the woman who runs is fab, the people were all friendly and supportive, and I love feeling the burn afterwards.
Then without reason, I soon stopped going. Yup, I didn’t turn up one week. Then that one week soon turned into one month, and then the inevitable happens – I just stopped going altogether.
Why, did something terrible happen? No, the issue was me. I always feel self-conscience about going to the gym or going to a class. My heart was telling me to stop being silly, while my head was putting up a block and stopping me going. You can tell, which one won right?
And that how it has been for me, I soon developed the fear. I soon became engulfed in a smoky cloud of fear. I listened to that little voice of self-doubt, and I let it rule me.
Which even when I listened to that little voice, I knew it was stupid, and the fear was all in my head. In reality, no one looks at you or even notice you while in a class. They are too busy with their workout to notice a squash jelly bean in a class.
I weighed myself recently, and the result wasn’t good folks, so subsequently the only person who can take back control and be able to overrule this stupid self-doubt and the fear that took over my life – is me.
With my help from my hubby, I worked up the motivation and the confidence to go back to body pump.
And that what I did this week. I took myself to the class – did a workout and I felt a proper good burn. I essentially got my body pump groove.
Was anyone staring at me? Or was talking behind my back – no one was. So this whole fear and self-doubt were me being stupid. The lady who runs it gave me a high five and welcomed me back. I’m sure no one notices that I was a squash jelly bean.
The moral of the story, when you on the treadmill – keep going and don’t stop. I have found that when you come off the treadmill, that when you are likely not to be able to pick yourself up. It takes inner strength (and motivation from the scale) to put yourself back on.
The hardest part is picking yourself up, once you have done that – it does get easier. Once you do something just that one time, the rest of the time – it will be easier. So folks, if you feel self-doubt or has the fear –then only you can overrule it. Mind over matter.
Getting my groove back with body pump felt excellent and pleased with myself that I vapour the inner demon that plaguing me. I’m determined to stay on the treadmill and not come off it again.
