Sometimes I have to admit defeat when technology breaks down. Sometimes I have the need to disconnect with technology.

I’m writing this right now because I’m angry with technology, so angry in fact I’m illustrating this post with pretty flowers cause let me tell you folk, I’m am not a happy person right now. If you can see me now, there will be steam coming out of my head and I’d be beetroot red. So I’m sending you a happy picture of flowers as I’m not a pretty picture right now.

Yes, I’m angry at technology. My computer decided it doesn’t want to work. Something about RAM when I know I got plenty of RAM. My PC always breaks down when you need it the most.

(I’m currently typing this out on my husband computer which also makes me angry as I can’t type on his keyboard!)

Needless to say, I spent a good solid day trying to find a solution but getting nowhere. After spending a good 2 hours on a helpline, I finally admit defeat and hope that the great almighty computer god will get it sorted.

This whole episode not only left me sobbing and feeling an act of despair, it also made me realize how much I realize on technology and programs to keep everything going.

Without technology, I won’t be able to write a blog or be able to edit my photos. I would be genuinely lost if I didn’t have my phone.

I have gotten into such a habit of looking at my phone, that sometimes I forget I’m holding it and start panicking looking for it – even though it is in my hand.

I would wake up and check my phone straight away, If I’m at home I would turn my computer on and immediately see at my desk without having breakfast first. If I don’t feel like being at my desk, I would sit on the couch and go on the Playstation or watch something on Netflix.

I am quite frankly so deeply integrated with technology that I honestly don’t know how I would survive. It would be a doom day scenario if my phone or the internet goes down.

I have to admit it a little embarrassing saying this, but anyone who has ever known me – would know I’m a computer geek and more comfortable sitting on the computer than going out.

This scenario of technology failing on me does give me the excuse I really need to disconnect with it. My husband would often tease me and say if judgement day happens like in Terminator 2, would I actually be able to cope?

Ok sure I would be sobbing and be crying at first – cause oh my god judgement day just happen and Skynet is taking over the goddamn world. But as much as someone who has an addiction to a substance, I’m sure I would be able to cope. Ok, it would be hard and it terrible thing to compare my addiction to technology to someone of substance addiction.

But it would allow me to disconnect and get back into the real world. It would mean I wouldn’t have sore eyes from looking at the screen for so long or have RSI from typing so much.

If anything, sometimes we need to disconnect just for our own sanity and get back to being a human. A human who hear the birds sing, and to go somewhere without the need to Instagram everything.

Overall what I’m saying is, I have this need in me to disconnect with technology, especially when it breaks down. I need to learn how to be a human again. I need to focus on something without wanting to check my phone 10 million times a day. It would save my sanity and let me live in the real world.

I’m writing this and I’m pretty sure I am not the only one who is addicted to technology. What is your advice on disconnecting with technology and if something breaks down – how would cope?